One whole week without you . I don't know how i did it. But i managed to here. I don't know how tmr is going to be. Will things be the same when we meet thus again ?

Anyway, i pass my BTT evaluation! yay so happy like 99% so i'm duper happy. Next week is the BTT actual test!. Eggciting can. I'm one step closer to driving though mike say's the thought of me on the same road as him give's him the chills.

French class was duper funny , besides the fact that when asked to answer the questions , he commented that i have the vocab updated till 1999. Then whenever i say the wrong answer like

Hazel : B answer is B.
Menza : hazele Not pussyble , answer is Not pussyble

Super funny he really pronounces the PUSSYble very clearly. Couldn't stop cracking throughout the class he had to ask me if i was okay.

Erh. Don't know if i mentioned. But During LMS classes on friday , where we have classes with different people in different courses. XING JIAN aka 9.5 is in my class! like what the hell.
The first week we already were at loggerhead with each other. And today he was placed in my group!!! Damn stupid. He and i went to present something and the whole class hates him and couldn't stop laughing at every single thing he said. till the teacher had to ask us to respect him.

Now he still has pimples , and golden hair. After class the group approached our teacher to kick him out of our group. Haha yay . So blissful after that.

Xing jian : My friend commited suicide yesterday.
Hazel : why because of you ?
Xing Jian : I'm not going to talk to you hazel.
Hazel : Anybody wants bubbletea?
Xing jian : Ya buy for me
Hazel : No
Xing Jian : why not ?
Hazel : Why should i buy for you if you don't want to talk to me .
Xing jian : F*** i buy myself. My father gave me 200 dollars today blah blah blah

Super lame.

Anyway , today's psychology class was duper fun no? Psychology is quite fun , as you realise facts about other people and about yourself.

Oh ya. CH if your reading this , my mum say shouldn't spend money on just watching Lea selonga. Should wait for a production with props then its more worth the money.

So shoud we still go?

Gotta write letters , try on all 14 dresses i received this week ( BLISS! ) watch gossip girl , wax , paint my nails , print notes , plan sunday school , clean hamster cage and change my bedsheets!

TATA!

Sat behind someone that i swore looked exactly like you.
He moves , talked and looked like how i remembered you did.

Kept telling myself that " no way no way it's not him for sure "

Turns out it really wasn't you. Obviously.
Wished it was though.

Need to pass evaluation and theory test.
Need need need.

Very us to quarrel at the last minute. Esmee called me at 10.55. Lights out at 11. And we can quarrel.

The things we do. Extraoridary

The weekend was fabulous. I couldn't ask for anymore and just because of you. As we sat in the car writing secret messages in air , i know , i love you so much more.
Things get better when you submit and respect the one you love. Being more tolerant , apparent that we have so little time with each other. This week would be the toughest because from tonight till saturday night i won't even get to speak to you.

I just hope wherever you are , whatever you are doing , no matter through the jungle , or laying under the stars. You think of me , as much as i know i will think of you.

Esmee booked out on friday afternoon and i rushed there with my mum to pick him up . Just in the nick of time and through my mum's request " No hanky panky in the car "
I couldn't help but pounce on him the minute we were alone.
We passed by a pasar malam nearby and i wanted so badly to try a ramly burger as i've never did. We ended up buying cheap but yummy food up of all variety and having a field time eating at home. Contemplated going out. But all i wanted to do was lay in bed and stare at you.

Came over to my place in on saturday afternoon and had a yummy family dinner. Can't say how much my heart warms up when someone i know looks at him and go " Ah esmee "

Spent a whole load of time lying in bed just talking about our future. I remember closing my eyes and ernest asked if i was alright.

I told him all i wanted was to remember how he smells like , how it feels like to have him lying beside me , hugging me.

Through the weekend of , i love you's and i'll miss you's and thank you's.
It was utterly perfect like a holiday in Goa.

I'll last through this week.
But no matter what happens ,
Come back to me.

I love Friday's because...

IT's the last day of the work week.
The start of the weekends.
I only have class from 8.30 to 11.30.
I get to see my boyfriend after a whole long dreaded week.

I hate that we have that ultimatum but we've fallen prey under unchangable circumstances.

Today i had macro and dss. Which sucked because i hate to use excel.
Couldnt talk to my esmee at all because he's out doing some firing thing ( Sounds quite fun actually )
And the worst of all , Baby i cancelled his date with me because he's sick. Poor fella.

One of our recent conversations.
Hazel : So baby i , do you have a girlfriend.?
Baby i : I don't tell you la
Hazel : But you know uncle esmee is my boyfriend. So you must tell me.
Baby i : I got genevier , jolene , xuan xuan so many cause i'm very handsome.

On another occasion.
Hazel : I buy for you sweet what must you say.
Baby i : THANK YOU ah yi hazel.
Hazel : okay good.
Baby i : That time i give ah yi pretty sweet then she say thankyou , then i say your welcome.
Hazel : ( Astonished ) Fine , your welcome.

Nowadays kids can't even tell us directly to say welcome its really something.

French was damn fun because my tutor is damn funny. He came in with like 10 packs of chips apologising for missing class last week and 5 bottles of coke and fnN orange!!So we had a fun filled class eating and all and i met quite a number of people :)
The scary thing he did was make us go to the board to write our answers which was pretty intimidating.

Menza : OKAY describe the painting.
Hazel : The table...
Menza : Le francaise Hazele.
Hazel : The table...
Menza : Le Table Le Table ( which sounds like Lerh Tub Lerh Tub )

Sheesh i was like the worst there.

Okay going to wax and choose a dress so i will look oh so pretty when i pick esmee up tmr :)
Cya later alligators!

It's when the clock strike's 9.30. Its like my life just stops there.
I can't bring myself to do anything then hang around in the room , waiting for your call.
It's 10.20 now , i need to bath . But i wont' because i'm afraid you'll call and i'll kill myself.
Kill myself for missing it.

I don't know how i can do without.

School has been a breeze. With classes ending so early ( no tutorials this week ) and me missing one module. ( because i did an extra last sem ) It's like there's nothing to study.
Everyone can tell i'm ten times seriouser this sem. I have everything i need and i'm pleased with the groups that i am in this time. The first few lectures are high and definitely dry because everyone seem to like to go through the DO"s and DONT's.

How secondary school is that? But i'm really happy because my lectuerers are damn funny and i keep shouting in lecture all the answers because the teacher is hell funny. One tell's sexual jokes , one just likes to tell jokes. One makes me feel like he's one of us with him asking the whole theater to join his TWITTER account.

I really can't complain about anything. Now that i get ferried to school everyday. All my textbooks are blessed from the seriously cute wai ho. I'm kinda happy.

Went for french on wednesday ( damn happy cause i managed to change from friday which means i can fetch my bf from army!!! ) And i entered the class with relatively nobody inside. Soon after a malay girl came , and this ang moh guy came. And we all sat in a row. Textbooks out. chatting. Waiting for Menza Benoit to come. And after a long time i went out of the room and there was a huge notice on the door saying it was cancelled. But all was not lost. I met two friends that i can hang out with the rest of french safe to say. And we had a fun time walking to the bus stop. All the while me complaining that i came all the way from home. Irony was that they stayed further like pasir ris and bishan further. Was quite looking forward to french though. So happy when like a song came up in french and i could kind of interpret it here and there. Haha.

I miss you chien hui. Haven't seen you in like ages. Ernest will be 100% i don't care joining us for church this sunday so we'll see you there. It's our 10 month anniversary ( who's counting ) haha.
Just Is modules tmr . Starts at a crazy 8 but ends at 10. then i have the whole day.
I'm thinking of chopping off my locks or something after that. Anyway . I took two driving lessons from 6-10 pm ( 4 hours straight so i don't have to return to that place twice in a week )

Then come saturday morning. The long awaited journey ALONE to pasir ris. But i'll have you all the ride back and the entire weekend to come.

Sigh. It's 10.32. No call. But i'll keep waiting.

Boy it's been all this time.
And i can't get you off my mind.
Nobody knows it but me.

I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left.
Nobody knows it but me.

Every day i wipe my tears away.
So many nights i pray for you to stay.

All we'd have , is all we'd ever need.

I willed myself not to cry. But when i finally heard your voice .I couldn't help it.
I miss you.

Good night little lottie.