Maybe things will always be this way

I don't know what to say , should i stick around to let you treat me this way ?
Anyway , school's been pretty tough , with all the assignment's and presentations pressing on.
I don't know why but i volunteered to do everything that's presentation based because i really hate it if people come up with stupid presentations.

The Lms group is really a blunder i don't know , XJ is seriously getting on my nerves along with the others who keep coming back saying they have no work because they don't know how to do it.

Driving on the other hand is getting so tiring , the whole yay i'm driving is over and it's boiling down to lets get the subjects over asap please.
I have to finish my DSS excel stupid assignment tonight and do some LMS work too. :(
I don't know why all the problematic people were from my primary school like adora having family problems 24/7 and XJ just being a problem by himself.
And yes i've heard the request of you people , more would be coming up.
I am so stressed that i spent more than 500 dollars yesterday just buying buying buying things.
And when i reflected about the things i bought i realised i don't even like some things and sold them off before they even get here.


How great is this , i have boring econs tmr for lecture, then a DSS excel quiz ( sure fail ) , then 2 hours of driving followed by 2 hours of practical final theory than 2 hours of practical.
For those who are yearning to take their driving license DON"T because it's such a bloody long process i have said " i want to give up " about more than a bezillion times already.

Baby i said he wanted to take a picture of both of us. So he pressed the self timer button and ran to me. He's seriously so cute nowadays. i mean everyday.


That golf stick. Is his rifle.

Everything you do and words you say , you know it just takes my breath away.



Can i ask for anything more ? Look at baby i , his saluting because he wants to be a soldier like his uncle esmee!





Just look at that smirk on this face don't you wish you can just pinch his cheeks!


At our pirate ship





At Jb


I slept most of the trip but it was the loveliest i would do it all again in a heartbeat.

Every thing in me wanted to keep esmee overnight . i might need to confess that i secretly did not wake him up to go home at 12 and i obviously did not wake him for the soccer match. Though i expected him to return home in the morning , but when he flipped me over to tell me he would go home and pick me up for church.

Everything just felt perfect.






Oliver changin his pants! His underwear is so cute no? HAHAHA







Try running around in those heels.


And of course night came too soon as it always does.



Hello handsome , how about 11 months to you?

Driving is so tough can? I feel like crying just because of the pressure. Okay thats really dramatic but it's so hard. Like he brought me out to the road. Demonstrated ONCE and asked me to take over. I didn't even know which lane to stick to , what traffic light to observe or how the hell to 1 clutch 2 clutch 3 clutch 4 drive.

Sigh sigh sigh. So hard, i need esmee to teach me like he said he would. School was BAREable haha today. I slept through lecture but role playing during management was alright. I have DSS and LMS work to do but i'll leave that till later.

For now , ch is coming over so we can watch food inc. Followed by 4 smelly guys coming to play Mj. And plus tonight afew khaki's of my parents are coming to play mj. IT's going to be like MJ everywhere tonight! Haha.

I miss esmee and all i have is a whiff of his smell everytime i hold his shirt close to me.

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one


I waited for esmee from dawn to dusk only to have him at 10. Be it late. But dont let it be never.

I planned a dinner at Foster's but we decided to skip that to another day. We decided to head down to some place to eat his favourite laksa snack. But before that esmee and i laid in bed to talk about everything that had happened. And after a whole lot of listening , laughing and hugging.

We fell asleep. Haha. oh but to be there , in your arms , looking at your silhouette in the dark , just laughing and talking about stupid camp or stupid people. To hear you love me over and over again.

Awaked to be super late for church. But we got there somehow after much procrastinating at home. Was so happy to see ch because i've not seen her in ages!
Class was super duper fun.








Stayed through CE and went to eat KFC after that. Esmee kept saying i wanted to eat it. But i was thinking about all the fast food his missing out when he's inside what.


Even though i'm learning , i'll let esmee drive anyday anytime.



Rushed to his place , got scolded by his mum and then headed to pasir ris to say goodbye.
24 stops back home i counted. And every stop took me further away from him. Sigh.

Esmee left his shirt here with his cologne all over for me to sleep in. haha. Idolisation can? Oh my i must tell everyone that after esmee enlisted into army he falls asleep as soon as i counted to TEN.
NO JOKE.
Like 1 , 2 , 3 10 . Snore.

Kinda like gabby but boy version and faster.

I'm addicted to this song. But eunice has been in my room since forever , trying all my shoes at first , colouring and playing monopoly on her own now. She's so cute.

I can't wait for this week to past. Here's to driving , elearning french and JB. HERE I COME!